Life, Uncertainty & Cynicism
It’s really happening. Taira and I will meet in about five weeks for the first time in person. It shouldn’t be hard to have a more pleasant interaction than with the last person I met this way. The bar is pretty low though. Couldn’t decide whether to write this page tonight or jump back into [...]
There is this idea in my mind. I want to test Taleb's idea of a barbell strategy in a domain I'm already quite familiar with: poker. A highly conservative as well as highly risky approach in this area seems like an interesting hypothesis to test. I am relatively sure that most low-stakes players are extremely [...]
I finally did it. I wrote a couple of hundred words for my manuscript. Not much, but still a lot more than the previous months. That's a start, I guess. One reason why it wasn't any more was probably because I was sitting in one of my favourite bars and the conversations I was having [...]
Inhale. Exhale. Inhale. Exhale. Inhale. Exhale. Breath, you fuck! And calm the fuck down. Just had a discussion with Taira, during which I briefly had the impression that she would resent my objections. Anxiety here I come. I realized in this moment how much the time with Valerie scarred me emotionally even more. Sure, harmony [...]
I wonder how much longer I want to live like this. Somehow my days have become far too repetitive lately. I feel more and more trapped in a cycle from which there is no escape. Sure, I'm writing more at the moment, developing myself, working out, getting enough sleep, reading, so I'm following almost every [...]
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