Life, Uncertainty & Cynicism
06.05.2019 It's likely to be a hospital trip after all. Maya has persuaded me with her persuasive power to take care of a stationary admission. Sure, I'm feeling relatively well right now, but she pointed out that this is not a decisive criterion, as this mood can also quickly turn upside down again. When she [...]
05.05.2019 The advantage of extreme mood swings is obvious: As fast as bad episodes occur, they can disappear. Today, especially in comparison to yesterday, was actually quite good. Although I didn't get anything productive up and running, I wanted to take some rest after the stress of the previous day. This may sound a little [...]
04.05.2019 Today was...extreme. In many ways. The fact that I write these words in the middle of the night before going to bed and not, as usual, in the morning after waking up, already speaks for itself. I actually wanted to go to the ASP concert and meet Alicia. Instead I struggled half a day [...]
03.05.2019 Fuck. Everything hurts and I don't even know why. That's kind of profoundly unsatisfactory. Besides: Fuck. Again, I haven't managed to do anything productive with my day. The most useful thing I did was work out, but it's part of the routine anyway, so it doesn't really count. Hm. Routine. Maybe that's the solution [...]
02.05.2019 Actually managed to write a bit yesterday. And I immediately noticed that I can't put some of the things I wrote over a year ago this way any longer. The arrogance with which I wrote back then is now quite alienating to me, so I will inevitably have to adjust these passages. It's kind [...]
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