Life, Uncertainty & Cynicism
Hell of a day. Or evening. I seriously wondered if I'd be writing something at this time of day, after all it's almost six in the morning and I'm actually pretty tired. But somehow it just doesn't feel right to go to sleep without having at least partially reflected on the day and especially the [...]
Something happened which I wanted to avoid at all costs: I was told one cannot be so sure whether these thoughts actually occur unfiltered because they are read by others. More specifically, this is what Taira told me. Currently, she is the one with whom I regularly share these passages, and her assumption therefore is [...]
26.09.2019 I just saw what Taira meant when she wrote that the last date confused her. Numbers are smoke and mirrors. I'm writing more. Finally. Took me long enough. Still not on my main manuscript, but that's okay. I feel how with every day that passes, my head half-consciously continues to work on it and [...]
24.09.2019 What an unbelievably strange day. Only five hours of sleep at first, then got up, took a shower, had coffee and left for the clinic for the admission interview. Of course, I took the wrong tram, got off a few stops later to change to the right one. Great plan, lousy implementation. Again I [...]
22. 09. 2019 Wow. Just wow. I was so incredibly anxious after sending her my thoughts from yesterday. I kept thinking, "Okay, that's it. Too much for her. Can't deal with this shit". But no. Quite the opposite. Her answer was everything I had hoped for. Super calm, trusting and appreciative. If it hadn't already [...]
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