Ghosts Of The Past

Ghosts Of The Past

10.05.2019 Technically, I do write these pieces in the morning. Just on a VERY early morning. It's probably mainly a question of perspective. Independent of that, I have a clear plan for tonight. Aha, now it is night after all? Sssh! I want to continue talking to myself in peace. Ahem. Anyway, today I will [...]

Infinity of Nothing

Infinity of Nothing

09.05.2019 Once again today was unproductive as fuck. Basically I spent the whole day just playing Dota and watching series. Well, at least there was enough motivation for exercise in between, but apart from that it looked rather mediocre. This whole clinic story is probably not a bad idea. Now it just has to happen [...]

Split

Split

08.05.2019 I must confess, I'm quite a bit proud of myself. After I had drunk too much yesterday without any reason and was again tempted today to prepare some delicious mixed drinks, I did not succumb to it and remained alcohol-free. That's in consideration of the fact that I neither exercised nor was productive in [...]

Not Alone

Not Alone

07.05.2019 Got my letter of referral to the hospital. Now all I have to do is send it off. The first, very important step seems to be done. But without an external incentive it would probably never have happened. One of the advantages of extreme dependency in terms of social relationships is that it is [...]

Taking Control

Taking Control

06.05.2019 It's likely to be a hospital trip after all. Maya has persuaded me with her persuasive power to take care of a stationary admission. Sure, I'm feeling relatively well right now, but she pointed out that this is not a decisive criterion, as this mood can also quickly turn upside down again. When she [...]