Life, Uncertainty & Cynicism
The paths life sometimes takes seem very chaotic. Once again, I ask myself how I could have been so blind. I have consciously had no contact with Valerie for weeks. Not since she sent me a three-page statement in which she raves about what a magnificent superhuman she is. I haven't kicked her off my [...]
26.09.2019 I just saw what Taira meant when she wrote that the last date confused her. Numbers are smoke and mirrors. I'm writing more. Finally. Took me long enough. Still not on my main manuscript, but that's okay. I feel how with every day that passes, my head half-consciously continues to work on it and [...]
24.09.2019 What an unbelievably strange day. Only five hours of sleep at first, then got up, took a shower, had coffee and left for the clinic for the admission interview. Of course, I took the wrong tram, got off a few stops later to change to the right one. Great plan, lousy implementation. Again I [...]
22. 09. 2019 Wow. Just wow. I was so incredibly anxious after sending her my thoughts from yesterday. I kept thinking, "Okay, that's it. Too much for her. Can't deal with this shit". But no. Quite the opposite. Her answer was everything I had hoped for. Super calm, trusting and appreciative. If it hadn't already [...]
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