Life, Uncertainty & Cynicism
03.05.2019 Fuck. Everything hurts and I don't even know why. That's kind of profoundly unsatisfactory. Besides: Fuck. Again, I haven't managed to do anything productive with my day. The most useful thing I did was work out, but it's part of the routine anyway, so it doesn't really count. Hm. Routine. Maybe that's the solution [...]
02.05.2019 Actually managed to write a bit yesterday. And I immediately noticed that I can't put some of the things I wrote over a year ago this way any longer. The arrogance with which I wrote back then is now quite alienating to me, so I will inevitably have to adjust these passages. It's kind [...]
30.04.2019 Yesterday was... intense. To be honest, it was incredibly crappy. Mood swings have always been part of my life, but for a long time they weren't as intense as yesterday. I suddenly started crying in the shower and when later not even the physical exhaustion of my workout provided the relief I had hoped [...]
29.04.2019 I signed up for one of those countless dating apps. It happened pretty fast until the first match occurred. I've already been texted. Irony of the story: Personally, I think dating is super exhausting. That's not only because my mental condition makes many emotional interactions unnecessarily complicated, but also because I'm polyamorous. In fact, [...]
28.04.2019 Drawback of living with other people? After waking up you see a broken wine glass in the kitchen and nobody seems to take responsibility for it. Since it was also the second last wine glass, we definitely need new ones, because drinking alone is also somewhat uncool. After all, it took a good five [...]
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