Life, Uncertainty & Cynicism
It's been more than a month since I last wrote here. I've noticed a pattern. The better I feel, the less I feel the need to write these pages. Probably because I have much less need for clarification in my head. A better life is possible. What started more than a year ago as a [...]
Fuck. Too much chaos in my head. Actually, wanted to write the scene featuring Lucian, started it too, but quit after a few hundred words. I just can't get the necessary immersion in my head when there's still too much chaos. Maybe I should write these pages here first and then head off to Sangea. [...]
If you can't sleep, write. Trivial suggestion, but since sleep and restlessness are among the demons of my existence, it doesn't seem too wrong to at least do something useful with this time. Being frustrated in bed doesn't change anything in the end. So, the least I can do is put down on paper some [...]
I finally did it. I wrote a couple of hundred words for my manuscript. Not much, but still a lot more than the previous months. That's a start, I guess. One reason why it wasn't any more was probably because I was sitting in one of my favourite bars and the conversations I was having [...]
I wonder how much longer I want to live like this. Somehow my days have become far too repetitive lately. I feel more and more trapped in a cycle from which there is no escape. Sure, I'm writing more at the moment, developing myself, working out, getting enough sleep, reading, so I'm following almost every [...]
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