Life, Uncertainty & Cynicism
11.05.2019 I didn't drink alcohol today, although I felt the need for it. Instead, I experimented with unconventional builds in Dota. That's pretty entertaining. Two of them worked, too. This Huskar position 4 thing was rather... mediocre. But Sniper 5 was surprisingly effective. I will probably include that in my support repertoire. Probably I'll get [...]
06.05.2019 It's likely to be a hospital trip after all. Maya has persuaded me with her persuasive power to take care of a stationary admission. Sure, I'm feeling relatively well right now, but she pointed out that this is not a decisive criterion, as this mood can also quickly turn upside down again. When she [...]
05.05.2019 The advantage of extreme mood swings is obvious: As fast as bad episodes occur, they can disappear. Today, especially in comparison to yesterday, was actually quite good. Although I didn't get anything productive up and running, I wanted to take some rest after the stress of the previous day. This may sound a little [...]
We never learned how to live. Out of an infinite nothing we are thrown completely unprepared into an existence that was impossible for us to choose. If we were to be given a say beforehand, it is not unlikely that we would fiercely resist such a life. Obviously, we do not always have a choice. [...]
02.05.2019 Actually managed to write a bit yesterday. And I immediately noticed that I can't put some of the things I wrote over a year ago this way any longer. The arrogance with which I wrote back then is now quite alienating to me, so I will inevitably have to adjust these passages. It's kind [...]
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