The Plan

The Plan

16.05.2019 I wonder if my not-so-sober brain is any more rational than I am. Under the influence of alcohol, it seems pretty clear to me what has to be done. But on days like today, with enough sleep, good nutrition and sport, things look quite different. Then my head imagines that I'm actually doing quite [...]

An Old Friend

An Old Friend

13.05.2019 Somehow interesting what ten hours of sleep can do. I definitely feel fitter and mentally more stable than the last few days. I even finally managed to see the last two episodes of the current Game of Thrones season. They were somehow meh. The current season seems super hectic, the character development is boring [...]

Building Habits

Building Habits

11.05.2019 I didn't drink alcohol today, although I felt the need for it. Instead, I experimented with unconventional builds in Dota. That's pretty entertaining. Two of them worked, too. This Huskar position 4 thing was rather... mediocre. But Sniper 5 was surprisingly effective. I will probably include that in my support repertoire. Probably I'll get [...]

Taking Control

Taking Control

06.05.2019 It's likely to be a hospital trip after all. Maya has persuaded me with her persuasive power to take care of a stationary admission. Sure, I'm feeling relatively well right now, but she pointed out that this is not a decisive criterion, as this mood can also quickly turn upside down again. When she [...]

Light and Darkness

Light and Darkness

05.05.2019 The advantage of extreme mood swings is obvious: As fast as bad episodes occur, they can disappear. Today, especially in comparison to yesterday, was actually quite good. Although I didn't get anything productive up and running, I wanted to take some rest after the stress of the previous day. This may sound a little [...]