Life, Uncertainty & Cynicism
Inhale. Exhale. Inhale. Exhale. Inhale. Exhale. Breath, you fuck! And calm the fuck down. Just had a discussion with Taira, during which I briefly had the impression that she would resent my objections. Anxiety here I come. I realized in this moment how much the time with Valerie scarred me emotionally even more. Sure, harmony [...]
I wonder how much longer I want to live like this. Somehow my days have become far too repetitive lately. I feel more and more trapped in a cycle from which there is no escape. Sure, I'm writing more at the moment, developing myself, working out, getting enough sleep, reading, so I'm following almost every [...]
Hell of a day. Or evening. I seriously wondered if I'd be writing something at this time of day, after all it's almost six in the morning and I'm actually pretty tired. But somehow it just doesn't feel right to go to sleep without having at least partially reflected on the day and especially the [...]
Something happened which I wanted to avoid at all costs: I was told one cannot be so sure whether these thoughts actually occur unfiltered because they are read by others. More specifically, this is what Taira told me. Currently, she is the one with whom I regularly share these passages, and her assumption therefore is [...]
The paths life sometimes takes seem very chaotic. Once again, I ask myself how I could have been so blind. I have consciously had no contact with Valerie for weeks. Not since she sent me a three-page statement in which she raves about what a magnificent superhuman she is. I haven't kicked her off my [...]
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