Life, Uncertainty & Cynicism
26.09.2019 I just saw what Taira meant when she wrote that the last date confused her. Numbers are smoke and mirrors. I'm writing more. Finally. Took me long enough. Still not on my main manuscript, but that's okay. I feel how with every day that passes, my head half-consciously continues to work on it and [...]
24.09.2019 What an unbelievably strange day. Only five hours of sleep at first, then got up, took a shower, had coffee and left for the clinic for the admission interview. Of course, I took the wrong tram, got off a few stops later to change to the right one. Great plan, lousy implementation. Again I [...]
22. 09. 2019 Wow. Just wow. I was so incredibly anxious after sending her my thoughts from yesterday. I kept thinking, "Okay, that's it. Too much for her. Can't deal with this shit". But no. Quite the opposite. Her answer was everything I had hoped for. Super calm, trusting and appreciative. If it hadn't already [...]
21.09.2019 Almost to the day there are four months between the last entry and the present. Fuck. So much fucked up shit has happened in those four months. My not-so-sober head can only pay so much attention to it. Initially I wanted to continue exploring the story around Sangea, but currently too many other thoughts [...]
20.05.2019 Today was fascinating in many ways. Although I didn't manage to work (although I had short impulses once in a while, which were suppressed by other things), most of the other parts of the action plan were successfully implemented. Especially the fact that after a few days break I finally started working out again [...]
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