Life, Uncertainty & Cynicism
05.05.2019 The advantage of extreme mood swings is obvious: As fast as bad episodes occur, they can disappear. Today, especially in comparison to yesterday, was actually quite good. Although I didn't get anything productive up and running, I wanted to take some rest after the stress of the previous day. This may sound a little [...]
03.05.2019 Fuck. Everything hurts and I don't even know why. That's kind of profoundly unsatisfactory. Besides: Fuck. Again, I haven't managed to do anything productive with my day. The most useful thing I did was work out, but it's part of the routine anyway, so it doesn't really count. Hm. Routine. Maybe that's the solution [...]
02.05.2019 Actually managed to write a bit yesterday. And I immediately noticed that I can't put some of the things I wrote over a year ago this way any longer. The arrogance with which I wrote back then is now quite alienating to me, so I will inevitably have to adjust these passages. It's kind [...]
01.05.2019 Every time I start writing these lines, I have no idea where my own thoughts will lead me. It's a bit like going on a journey of unknown directions, but with the certainty that you will somehow reach your destination safely. It seems to me that there are far worse ways to spend one' [...]
30.04.2019 Yesterday was... intense. To be honest, it was incredibly crappy. Mood swings have always been part of my life, but for a long time they weren't as intense as yesterday. I suddenly started crying in the shower and when later not even the physical exhaustion of my workout provided the relief I had hoped [...]
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