The Plan

The Plan

16.05.2019 I wonder if my not-so-sober brain is any more rational than I am. Under the influence of alcohol, it seems pretty clear to me what has to be done. But on days like today, with enough sleep, good nutrition and sport, things look quite different. Then my head imagines that I'm actually doing quite [...]

Scream In The Dark

Scream In The Dark

15.05.2019 I feel completely lost. The days are like clouds passing by on a clear, gloomy autumn evening. No matter how much I plan to do something productive, these lines are the only ones that come anywhere near this aspiration. I am already back at the daily grind of self-destruction. The referral for the clinic [...]

The Hidden Blade

The Hidden Blade

14.05.2019 Sleep was quite mediocre. No exercise, barely ate, drank alcohol. My body was probably somewhat ungrateful today for the way I treated it. However, the meeting with Tom was quite interesting for me. He now lives in Japan, is married and researches AI security. Cool shit. Meanwhile, I'm trying to get my life together [...]

An Old Friend

An Old Friend

13.05.2019 Somehow interesting what ten hours of sleep can do. I definitely feel fitter and mentally more stable than the last few days. I even finally managed to see the last two episodes of the current Game of Thrones season. They were somehow meh. The current season seems super hectic, the character development is boring [...]

Tragedy

Tragedy

12.05.2019 Only when you no longer care, you have nothing to lose. That' s how it was with this Fightclub aphorism, which all the cool kids in the block used to whisper conspiratorially to each other. Or was it another? Doesn't matter either. Like so many things. Quiz question: How can you tell that your [...]