Death Is Only The Beginning

Death Is Only The Beginning

Contemplating about death often bears quite a heavy tune. Which is probably not surprising for most, since we usually spend the better parts of our lives avoiding to ever think too much about ending the very same. Not necessarily voluntarily by force, just due to mundane matters like aging, illness or someone swatting us for [...]

Freedom Is Not A Choice

Freedom Is Not A Choice

Freedom is the biggest lie, the greatest illusion of all. Whatever you may think, no matter how sure you are about your own perception – you are probably wrong. And it does not matter. When I wrote these introductory words about three and a half years ago, I could never have dreamt of what would [...]

Cocoon

Cocoon

I know. I am not writing as much as I should. And I feel guilty about it. Satisfied?Weird thing is, there is constantly so much shit going on inside my mind that I would have a lot to write about. But instead I dwell in different things. Work, video games, movies, exercise, eat, sleep, repeat. [...]

Poison

Poison

Reflections. On life, decisions, peace, everything. Sleep deprivation is like a venomous spike deep inside your flesh. It spills it’s poison through your veins, clouding every thought, every judgment, every decision you make. It intensifies negative emotions by a hundredfold. No wonder, everything turns to shit, whenever my body decides that it’s time to ignore [...]

Erebus

Erebus

Dealing with emotions is something I would like to avoid given the chance. Even the slightest feeling of real or more often imaginary rejection causes intense emotional pain. There is no antidote. It just happens. Sometimes I manage to control the duration but the severity usual remains the same. Every thought about the many whys [...]