Life, Uncertainty & Cynicism
Dealing with emotions is something I would like to avoid given the chance. Even the slightest feeling of real or more often imaginary rejection causes intense emotional pain. There is no antidote. It just happens. Sometimes I manage to control the duration but the severity usual remains the same. Every thought about the many whys [...]
People keep asking me, whether I am back. Yes. I guess, I am back. Ok, that was a blatant lie. Nobody is aking me that. But I felt the drive of writing more again for a couple of weeks now. I miss it. I really do. I enjoy these nightly ramblings. My mind can drift [...]
Status report. New Year. First words. Like freshly fallen snow. Soaked in blood. Dramatic climax. Ruined life, ruined love, ruined family. Everything turns to shit and I'm just standing there, apathetic. Letting it happen. I'm blogging again regularly. Mostly old stuff. I'm frustrated because the blog I’m writing with other authors has morphed into [...]
I don't write enough. I know. I don't know if that's a good or a bad sign. Maybe a little bit of both. But an awful lot has happened in the last few weeks. The most significant was probably my time in Frankfurt with the intention of starting a new job as head bartender. Two [...]
It's been more than a month since I last wrote here. I've noticed a pattern. The better I feel, the less I feel the need to write these pages. Probably because I have much less need for clarification in my head. A better life is possible. What started more than a year ago as a [...]
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