Life, Uncertainty & Cynicism
14.05.2019 Sleep was quite mediocre. No exercise, barely ate, drank alcohol. My body was probably somewhat ungrateful today for the way I treated it. However, the meeting with Tom was quite interesting for me. He now lives in Japan, is married and researches AI security. Cool shit. Meanwhile, I'm trying to get my life together [...]
11.05.2019 I didn't drink alcohol today, although I felt the need for it. Instead, I experimented with unconventional builds in Dota. That's pretty entertaining. Two of them worked, too. This Huskar position 4 thing was rather... mediocre. But Sniper 5 was surprisingly effective. I will probably include that in my support repertoire. Probably I'll get [...]
04.05.2019 Today was...extreme. In many ways. The fact that I write these words in the middle of the night before going to bed and not, as usual, in the morning after waking up, already speaks for itself. I actually wanted to go to the ASP concert and meet Alicia. Instead I struggled half a day [...]
30.04.2019 Yesterday was... intense. To be honest, it was incredibly crappy. Mood swings have always been part of my life, but for a long time they weren't as intense as yesterday. I suddenly started crying in the shower and when later not even the physical exhaustion of my workout provided the relief I had hoped [...]
