The Hidden Blade

The Hidden Blade

14.05.2019 Sleep was quite mediocre. No exercise, barely ate, drank alcohol. My body was probably somewhat ungrateful today for the way I treated it. However, the meeting with Tom was quite interesting for me. He now lives in Japan, is married and researches AI security. Cool shit. Meanwhile, I'm trying to get my life together [...]

Building Habits

Building Habits

11.05.2019 I didn't drink alcohol today, although I felt the need for it. Instead, I experimented with unconventional builds in Dota. That's pretty entertaining. Two of them worked, too. This Huskar position 4 thing was rather... mediocre. But Sniper 5 was surprisingly effective. I will probably include that in my support repertoire. Probably I'll get [...]

Despair

Despair

30.04.2019 Yesterday was... intense. To be honest, it was incredibly crappy. Mood swings have always been part of my life, but for a long time they weren't as intense as yesterday. I suddenly started crying in the shower and when later not even the physical exhaustion  of my workout provided the relief I had hoped [...]