Three Shots

Three Shots

I relish the pain. I embrace it. Be it by the blade of a knife or the physical exhaustion during another workout session. It numbs everything else. For a short, blissful while. No emotional despair. For a few minutes, at least. My heart aches. Literally. The emotional pain I feel translates into physical one. They [...]

Crackpot Monkey

Crackpot Monkey

  Status report. New Year. First words. Like freshly fallen snow. Soaked in blood. Dramatic climax. Ruined life, ruined love,  ruined family. Everything turns to shit and I'm just standing there, apathetic. Letting it happen. I'm blogging again regularly. Mostly old stuff. I'm frustrated because the blog I’m writing with other authors has morphed into [...]

Preventing Pain

Preventing Pain

Hell of a day. Or evening. I seriously wondered if I'd be writing something at this time of day, after all it's almost six in the morning and I'm actually pretty tired. But somehow it just doesn't feel right to go to sleep without having at least partially reflected on the day and especially the [...]