Life, Uncertainty & Cynicism
19.05.2019 Life moves in very strange circles sometimes. Well, not mine. It currently runs in a very monotonous, very unhealthy, destructive, but certainly not strange circle. If I were to string together all the days of the past weeks like a snake of dominoes, most of them would differ at most in a few small [...]
16.05.2019 I wonder if my not-so-sober brain is any more rational than I am. Under the influence of alcohol, it seems pretty clear to me what has to be done. But on days like today, with enough sleep, good nutrition and sport, things look quite different. Then my head imagines that I'm actually doing quite [...]
14.05.2019 Sleep was quite mediocre. No exercise, barely ate, drank alcohol. My body was probably somewhat ungrateful today for the way I treated it. However, the meeting with Tom was quite interesting for me. He now lives in Japan, is married and researches AI security. Cool shit. Meanwhile, I'm trying to get my life together [...]
11.05.2019 I didn't drink alcohol today, although I felt the need for it. Instead, I experimented with unconventional builds in Dota. That's pretty entertaining. Two of them worked, too. This Huskar position 4 thing was rather... mediocre. But Sniper 5 was surprisingly effective. I will probably include that in my support repertoire. Probably I'll get [...]
06.05.2019 It's likely to be a hospital trip after all. Maya has persuaded me with her persuasive power to take care of a stationary admission. Sure, I'm feeling relatively well right now, but she pointed out that this is not a decisive criterion, as this mood can also quickly turn upside down again. When she [...]
